Link reblogged from Fuck Yeah Love!
I saw you walking towards me. Slowly. Tired out. I gave you a wave and smiled inside. I finally saw you, my heart was beating so fast I couldn’t move. You came and stood in front of me. I grabbed your hand and walked. We didn’t talk.I looked to the ground and all I saw was our silhouette. It made me tear. I look to you, and you were looking down also. Were you crying? You had the saddest face on, it made my heart ache.
Our hands started to sweat, but I didn’t let go, I didn’t want to, and wouldn’t let you if you did. I touched our couple ring on your finger, glad you still had it on.
As we walked down, I kept looking at you, not knowing what to say, asking if you were okay, and you simply said “I’m fine”. I asked if you were crying, and you said “No I’m not!”. It made me cry. The fact of not knowing what to do. We never walked down a long road without talking like that. I knew I couldn’t just go home now.
I thought of ways I could say I wanted to stay with you longer. I thought if I should ask you. Tell you. I couldn’t put the words into my mouth. Finally, when we got close to the station, I knew I had to say something.
- “Can I stay with you longer?”
- “How?”
- “Sit.. at your house?”
- “How?”
- “Downstairs?”
- “If you want to, I don’t care”
I didn’t know what to do. I just knew that I needed you, and I can’t just let you go like this. We walked to your house, and onto the playground at your house.
We didn’t sit at our usual spot, and we sat down without saying anything, and just looking into the sky, with the cool wind blowing upon us. I breathed out a sigh, and looked at you. I couldn’t help but cry.
You saw my tears and said “Don’t cry” which made me cry more. Then you said “You crying won’t make me feel any better”. I couldn’t stop. I asked for a hug. And you hugged me. I let out all my tears onto you. Every single tear I’ve been crying the whole two days, out onto you within this minute. I cried. I cried out loud. And I said I’m sorry. I said I’m sorry and I cried. And you just held me. Tighter and tighter every time I let out a cry. I got your sleeve wet and pulled back. You looked at me with those beautiful eyes, and wiped my tears. Your face looked cute, and not so angry at me anymore. I smiled. You held me again, and I cried again.
The way you wiped my tears, pulled my hair back, touched my face, it just softened my heart bit by bit. Every part that was shaking within me went calm from your touch. You cupped my face with your hands and kissed me. We smiled.
At that moment, nothing mattered. I felt like we fell in love all over again. I felt that even though we’ve been in so much shit the past two days, we’re much stronger now. This overwhelming feeling of love came upon me, and I just melted. I melted in your arms, lost in you.
You looked at me, and I looked at you, and you said you’re sorry too. The moment was so beautiful, even though I was crying and you were tearing. I knew you were the one for me at that moment. I thanked you. And you kept holding me, kissing me, playing with my hair and my face. You drew on my skin, love hearts on my palm.
I love you so much, and I hope you know that by now. I let out a sigh of relief, a sigh of happiness and a sigh of comfort.
I now hope that you can know I am always there for you. I know life is hard for you, but I will be here. I understand you’d want to bottle everything, but I don’t care about the burden you may give me, about the rage you may let out at me. I’m your girlfriend, your wife, your bestfriend, and that’s what I’m here for.
Source: fuckyeahhlove
